the time now is currently 4.56am on my computer.

i fell asleep while trying to start my asssignment. dear me. hahaha.

my sleeping pattern has been on and off these days. and to be honest, ive problems scheduling my own time. i get distracted very easily. i waste a lot of time procrastinating. bleahhh

i need a wake up call.

lol.

nothing much on monday nights since they are always packed with lessons.

i went to the east for some work and then i went to visit my granny. my dad was there. we wheeled her to cgh. bumped into my brother and his gf there. my granny tells me that my bro’s gf spends some time with her everyday (since shes a PT there)

i like family gatherings. its nice that there were so many of us. i like the feeling. its heartwarming.

sometimes.. when you already know the answer, is there even a need to ask?

ignorance is bliss.

knowing too much is not healthy.. as it adds on to my load.

knowing too little is not that healthy as well.. as i will not learn anything.

it is depressing to see the ugly side of human.
money is the root of all evil.. but without money, you are nothing. money can however, allow you to make important decisions in life..

what makes me stronger.. is experiencing bitterness itself..listening to real life stories..getting in a closer touch to reality.

i always like to compare my life with other people’s life. then i realise, what i am going through, is nothing compared to theirs.

我要。。找回自己。

难受。

我的心，超难受。

i havent been blogging for awhile.. its mid feb now.

life has been good to me..as compared to the extreme cases ive seen. i do not know how they were able to cope with all the load on their shoulders, yet appear as if they live a blissful and happy life. i should really reflect on myself and stop all the trash i was doing.

i feel so helpless at times.

lets see…

cny. nothing exciting..lol. only thing is i wish shit never happened.

few catching up with my big groups like my e7 and pclique. small hangouts with angela..khairiyah.

i have been neglecting school work. haha. must really bang my head on the wall. tsk me.

some people i meet in my life.. are really funny. sometimes i dont know whether i should just laugh at my life..or them.

ending off~

i think this is nice.

wake up

i need to wake up.

天后。

chinese songs are emo

to the extent they made me cry

hopeless romance

i see myself as a joke in your eyes, you player.

im a fucking fool.

life is short

right now my mind is really blur.

my granny is still hospitalised. sigh. the nurse said she was confused the night before. on the surface she seems emotionally ok. physically definitely no.

i just heard that my manager’s sister, who is younger than me, passed away..

seriously headache..

when i was young

i still can remember the agony and reluctance whenever school reopens in my primary and secondary school days. i dread school. my tertiary days were carefree.

trimester 2 starts today. honestly this time round i dread going. i was right afterall.

dad just text me and said granny is hospitalised..

i really do want to hire a maid for her if i have the capability.